You know how sometimes adults go through midlife crises? Yeah well apparently that exists for teenagers too.
You know. That one moment you realize that your life is not, in fact, perfect and that if you don't start taking responsibility for your own actions then you're probably gonna end up flipping burgers at Wendy's.
I just realized that I've never actually truly put in any effort into... Well, anything really. I mean, it's not like I'm failing high school (I have an A average for 9th and 10th grade) but I could do so much more. All my life everyone's been telling me I have so much potential, that if I just worked a bit harder, then I could be amazing at anything I wanted to.
But I can't. I just can't.
I just don't have that kind of drive because my willpower is like below the poverty line. I don't really know what to do anymore. I mean, how can someone just adopt a new part of themselves overnight? I really want to try but it's just so hard.
All I know is that somehow, I need to find a way to do this or I'll keep digging myself a deeper grave.
I need to find a way to stop getting so distracted and to actually focus on what matters -_-
This is so hard and my head is just so jumbled I don't know what to do.
I just need to promise myself that no matter what I need to start working harder I guess.
Ew stupid serious blog post sorriez.
You know. That one moment you realize that your life is not, in fact, perfect and that if you don't start taking responsibility for your own actions then you're probably gonna end up flipping burgers at Wendy's.
I just realized that I've never actually truly put in any effort into... Well, anything really. I mean, it's not like I'm failing high school (I have an A average for 9th and 10th grade) but I could do so much more. All my life everyone's been telling me I have so much potential, that if I just worked a bit harder, then I could be amazing at anything I wanted to.
But I can't. I just can't.
I just don't have that kind of drive because my willpower is like below the poverty line. I don't really know what to do anymore. I mean, how can someone just adopt a new part of themselves overnight? I really want to try but it's just so hard.
All I know is that somehow, I need to find a way to do this or I'll keep digging myself a deeper grave.
I need to find a way to stop getting so distracted and to actually focus on what matters -_-
This is so hard and my head is just so jumbled I don't know what to do.
I just need to promise myself that no matter what I need to start working harder I guess.
Ew stupid serious blog post sorriez.
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